Waiting

Yesterday's US showed my cervix got shorter. The Specialist that scanned me had a witty humor (that I normally like). He said "Yup, almost nothing there" and "Looks like you're ready to have a baby". That is not what I wanted to hear! So, I asked the nurse in the room more details. She confirmed I am shorter and my hospital routine prob. won't change.

I didn't expect to get discharged (at least at this time) because the past 2 nights I was having 6 contractions in one hour during my monitoring sessions and so I had to take a Nifedipine pills to further slow down contractions. Given this, I don't see how they'd wean me off magnesium. Therefore, I'm stuck to my BFF and in this hospital. I'm still waiting for my doctor (was told tomorrow) to give me the long term news.

I was OK bracing myself for the fact that I'm not going anywhere, but when my nurse asked me if I was OK, I didn't feel OK despite what I told her. That moment I felt sad. I'm not going home-I'm not going to see Big M and Lil M daily. I know things at home are being taken care of, but I know it's draining Big M and I'm scared Lil M will be weirded out by having me back when I do come back. So far, she's pretty emotionally stable. Thank goodness.

I feel grumpy today. Last night's monitoring sucked. Started at 11 pm and ended at 2 am. The nurse that night kept asking if I felt the contractions. No, of course not; I'm trying to sleep!!! My contractions don't hurt (so far). Also, waiting for my doctor's response is keeping me on my toes. I'll keep you posted.

OK, here's what the monitoring process looks like:

--monitor machine spits out a graph of the monitoring.
--2 belts on my tummy to monitor baby's heart rate (blue block) and contractions (gray block).